27: A Chapter of Perseverance and Arrival
Birthday reflections from the best year of my life yet.
Some people don’t place a whole lot of meaning on their birthday, but for me, I subscribe to the idea that birthdays are a portal. It’s the day you arrived Earth-side and the day you get to feel a little more special than usual.
My 27th year has been the best yet. I’ve come home to myself. I’ve expanded my work and aspirations. And I’ve embodied a sense of arrival — of being where my feet are and knowing that where I am is where I need to be.
In years prior I had been often plagued by a feeling of missing something. A sense of wanting to be somewhere else. You know the feeling: holding a vision so big in your minds eye that your current reality just feels too far from it. You wake up asking “why hasn’t this and that worked out yet?”
But in the past year I did things differently. On my 26th birthday last year, January 6th, 2023, I remember consciously deciding that I was going to BE the things I wanted to be and not wait for something outside of me to confirm that identity. I said “okay, I AM a Writer. I AM a Creator.” I’m doing it, and that’s that.
It showed me the sizable difference that energy can make. It showed me that your journey is marked by the consciousness injected into each moment, into each venture, rather than the specific actions or milestones achieved.
To claim is to signal to your subconscious and to the Universe that it’s time.
You stop waiting and start doing. And the doing comes from a confident, expanded, trusting place. To take us on a trip down my 27th lane, here’s how it looked:
I embraced a new friendship — reaching out to a girl named Nikki for coffee in LA sparked a life-changing ripple. We’d go on to host a big 2-day livestream event — a project more significant and impactful than anything we’d done before.
I experienced hard conversations with my partner that pulled us closer and challenged me to meet my edges. To show up as my highest Self and to face my fears and insecurities. My relationship was a garden that I previously believed to have blossomed en full, only to be surprised by the continued growth and expansion.
I faced an enormous ego death — letting my solo podcast venture go for the time being and choosing to listen to my intuition’s pull toward a collaborative venture instead. Out Of Our Minds with Nikki & Bella was born and it turned my world upside down. We’ve been growing quickly ever since; the podcast itself, us as a team and as individuals. My North Node in Libra truly came to life this year in my embrace of partnership, balance, and not doing things alone.
I hosted my first in-person event and materialized the first iteration of my vision to be “on stage” sharing my gifts. Breathwork and meditation at SpaceX! Epic and cool and pure flow state. I proved to myself that taking the action, believing in myself, and doing the damn thing yields fulfillment beyond imagination.
And among the more intangibles…
There was healing. Rebirth. Reconfiguration. Frustration. Struggle. And awakening.
I began to feel in my bones that letting my journey be a slow burn is beautiful and perfect. I don’t need to rush. I don’t need to hit every major milestone before age 30. How boring anyway! And knowing me and my Love for Achievement (gift 54 in Human Design), living in this moment isn’t going to take away from my drive and ambition. It actually helps me embrace it MORE.
Because in the end, the process is what counts. The road to success is the point of it all.
Lastly, I have felt called to share all the items on my vision board and manifestation list that I DIDN’T do or achieve or make happen:
I didn’t get engaged! And it was perfect. We made our own way of signifying commitment and growth as a couple in a way that doesn’t depend on a ring or material symbol. And now, the impending moment will be that much sweeter. Why? Because I’m not in a rush and I know. And he knows. And when ya know ya know. LOL!
I didn’t make the exact $ amount I wanted to or anything near it. But boy did I learn a whole lot about abundance, financial management, trust, action, and more.
I didn’t read the amount of books I set out to. But that only showed me how much I do value reading, learning, and investigating. Sometimes not making your goal gives you the drive to recommit from a higher level of consciousness for the next attempt.
And to be honest there are a lot of other things I didn’t do! Some of these were on purpose and others were part of a Higher plan. This year taught me valuable lessons in both the things that happened and did not happen.
What stands out to me most is that I’m not itching any more.
I’m not talking about a skin condition LOL. I’m referencing my sense of Self and where I sit today. I’m able to hold the vision in all of its grandeur and possibility while sitting here, in my little room, at my makeshift work corner, happy. Present. Grateful. Listening to Jazz in the Background and knowing that the peace in my heart is worth more than anything on the planet.
And it’s for that reason that I believe 27 is going to be epic. With a stillness within me paired with a buzzing soul — nothing is in my way. Not even me! There is simply nothing I cannot do. And to affirm it in the positive:
Everything I desire to do, I will. In time. In divine perfection. And in mothaflippin’ styyyyle!
That felt good to say!!!!
Thank you for reading. Thanks for being here. And since it feels so damn good, I invite you to affirm your desires in the comments below. Celebrate with me!
xo,
BS
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